This year didn’t start too well, some
disturbing news on my partner’s health front giving us cause for concern. As
the year progressed though, we put our faith in the specialists and the
prognosis is all that we could hope for. Sadly, we also lost two people who
were dear to us, and who will stay in our hearts. That said, within our little
family unit, we are safe and content.
Still, though, as I lay in my bed last night, I
found myself wondering why ‘this’ can’t happen and ‘that’ can’t be; having a
bemoaning my lot moment, as we do sometimes. I then had a mental flash of an
image I’d seen on TV, slotted in between the pre-Christmas must-haves and the post-Christmas
sales and holiday ads. I’m not going to reproduce it here, I’m sure you can see
it as starkly as I can when I say it was of a mother desperate for some way to
feed her tiny malnourished child.
I was warm and cosy in my bed. My fridge is
bursting with food aplenty. Knowing I
donate to charities, praying the organisations I donate through ensure the
funds ever get there, I swallowed back a lump in my throat and gave myself a
swift kick up the derrière. Whatever the New Year brings, I realised I was fortunate
enough to be able to cherish fond memories of dear lost relatives, share new
memories with family and friends. I have twinkling tree lights and a fire to
toast my toes in front of. Am I really that badly off? I think not.
When I woke this morning it was with renewed determination
to make this year count, not to be aggressive in what I hope to
achieve, but to be positive, to try to enjoy each moment of each day, even
those where life’s little mishaps come to try us. I doubt I’ll get through the
first week without having a mental moan about something, but I’m going to give
it a go.
I hope everyone I know can find their little
bit of positivity, that their New Year brings them all that they might wish
for. It’s not easy sometimes to count our blessings, but I, for one, realise I
do have a few to count.
A heartfelt thank you to all my friends and supporters. I really could not have got through this year without you!
Stay safe. Be happy.
